Friday, June 6, 2008
and those are my two addictions
God wouldnt life be different if I never stepped foot into ACS International
Yea it would
But the question is would i be happier?
Or would i have to rely on induced happiness to get me through the day...
Well one things for sure; i aint and prolly aint gonna be happy for the next year? mayb 6 months
Goddamn the IB
And heres another regret; the party
WHY oh WHY did we decide: hey! I know lets all get nice and drunk so we can do some really stupid things with our friend's friends
bickering; incessant bickering, fighting, emo-ness, threats, betrayal, hate.
Worst of all losing a mate.
- You know to an outsider, this is all actually and probably quiet entertaining in the whiny teenish kinda way. Seriously I think its to much telly.
'dissapointments and regrets'
Tuesday, June 3, 2008
Monday, June 2, 2008
It fell to earth,
I knew not where;
For so swiftly it flew,
the sightCould not follow it in its flight.
I breathed a song into the air,
It fell to earth,
I knew not where;
For, who has sight so keen and strong
That it can follow the flight of song?
Long, long afterward, in an oak
I found the arrow, still unbroke;
guys pubis is dead- his blogging career is over.
how strange is it that a friendship once though unbreakable falls apart so quickly.
i guess its my fault but what could i have done. this is goodbye from a broken pube.
Saturday, May 31, 2008
Sunday, May 25, 2008
Nothing seems to be, nothing tastes as sweet
As what I can't have
ahh 'For you I will' a very nice song
was remembering all the old music i used to listen to when i was in sec 2
this ones special
its like i dunno
i guess il let the lyrics speak for themselves
Forgive me if I stutter
From all of the clutter in my head
Cuz I could fall asleep in those eyes
Like a water bed
(and i really could)
'For you i will'
Is someone who refuses to accept help when he or she needs it.
Sometime in your life someone may reach out to you and offer help, with a sincere aim to make a positive impact in your life. Do yourself a favor.
1) Don't push them away. In this day and age, we keep a lot of distance between each other. When someone takes the courage to break that distance and reach out to you, hear them out. You owe them the right to have your attention.
If you do push them away, you risk permanently erecting a barrier with them, jeopardizing that relationship. They will numb themselves from you and your life, which means stop caring. You will be reduced to "Facebook friend" status.
2) Their advice may not always be right. They themselves may be misguided. Problem with people is, when they get into a debate/argument, they focus on their side of the story and mentally categorize the other guy's view as INCORRECT.
Isn't it possible that the guy giving you advice isn't thinking properly? Wait. Isn't it possible YOU'RE not thinking properly? Both are possible. The only way to find out is to give others a chance.
The following phrases mean you don't care for finding out what is the right view: whatever, shut-up, mind your business, this is MY problem...
Don't insult people when they care.
Saturday, May 24, 2008
We hear the word 'hope' so very often so i decided to check up its definition. Hope seems to be an important part of many peoples lives.
Allan K. Chalmers believes that the Grand essentials of happiness are: something to do, something to love, and something to hope for.
and according to Christopher Reeve Once you choose hope, anything's possible.
So... hope is apparently something great huh! Very often we are consumed by hope; hoping for the best, hoping for an outcome. Ironically hoping does not get us anywhere nearer to getting or earning what we are hoping for.
Personally i feel we are often consumed by hope to such an extent that we loose track of our goals and are solely dependent on hope alone instead on the fact that our own efforts are enough in achieving our goals. So i guess there is some sense in the phrase abandon hope.
If you havent realised- this phrase is often used when we are in grave peril or when the 'end' is near and i believe there is a reason why. This is because hope is a distraction and by abandoning hope we are able to focus and direct our energy into what truly matters and from that we will find that we are more effective and more able in achieving our goals.
i've given up hoping or feeling for anything except for 5 people that matter and i feel it works. I find myself more focused but i just hope this feeling of emotionless doesn't consume me completely to the extent that i loose the people that matter( already i find myself disconnected from them). But for all of you out there who hope for the best-stop hoping and focus in getting it by means that are within your grasp.
note: abandoning hope can only be done by letting go of emotion.
I came across this poem and i want to share it.
Only a few will remember these songs
Only a handful of people
Who sit in a room
And always the road…
Can be faithful To their breadcrumb existence,
Whose home is nowhere in particular
Save the womb
And the catacomb
Of the spiderweb mind,
Which is never here and never there
Only a few will remember these words,
Will take the path that leads
Always going onward
While looking back in wonder
Between the starlight evening
And the cock-crow morning
In no order really
Only a few,
for they are part of you…
Only a few,
who will never see each others faces
But who know and understand,
That there is a power
The mind from darkness and pain;
The thought which directs the hand upon the wheel
The secret voice that says; “all is not in vain”
Only a few,
who will always be together only in thought,
For their thoughts seek each other out
And therein is truth born
They need never come too close.
“The eagle flies,
from the centre crown
At a point where the lines cross
And the eyes are vacant”
-crossing the line by john Scott ( i was reading poems and this poem touched me- the affinity i feel with this poem is scary and shocking at the very least)
First place I took pics of was colonial-style Raffles Hotel, circa 1887, built by a quartet of Armenian brothers. The hotel is patronized by nobility, both the real and the soidisant. Queen Elizabeth II, Ava Gardner and Rudy Jiuliani have all checked in before.
Next, I popped by St. Andrew's Cathedral. 1862, Anglican, Gothic and Awesome.
We end with the old Supreme Court. The new building, unfortunately, is modern and stale. The old one is flanked by massive pillars, adorned by statutes and oozes authority.
The Civic District. Home to governments, former and present; corporate empires and architecture lost to this age.
And bend through alleys and bounce off all the buildings
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
its like my school waits for the holiday
and right before it
they make your life a fucking hell
and the worst bit its the second last day
and im fucking swamped
i fucking just spent the last 2 hours writing bloody TOK and trying to understand the garb i wrote
and im still 400 words of target
and to add on, i skipped remedial chinese to fin the fucking essay
and just got an email from her, asking why i did not attend
omg for fucks sake i also have coursework along with than alien language
ohh and its sooo not over there
spent the whole of bloody recess doing chinese
so i effectively had 3 chinese lessons non stop on an empty stomach
hahahah cant wait, bloody hell cant wait to see the retribution for skipping econs earlier (FOR MY TOK ESSAY)
tommorow should be a blast
yep cant fucking wait
and YES THERES MORE WHINING
arghh i am listenin to always while thinkin of u
nd tml is the LAST day to make a move
yep cant wait for tommorow
Monday, May 19, 2008
What Happpens In Vegas. 4 stars.
Sometimes I feel that the critics are up in their own towers of pretense. This is a good movie, unfairly blasted by movie critics. This isn't your standard romantic comedy. The jokes are actually funny, the plot isn't half bad and the actors- Cameron Diaz and Ashton Kutcher- are a refreshing break from the whiny, weepy regulars that infest the rom-com genre.
So the movie is in the romantic comedy genre. It promises both comedy and romance.
The comedy is genuinely good. It is not (limited to) the standard off-colour fart-humour you'd expect from an Ashton Kutcher movie. There is a decent amount of (laugh-out-loud variety) wit.
The romance here is administered in healthy doses- something dudes can appreciate (tolerate?). It isn't too mushy and it's more teen-like, which I like.
The movie will make you happy.
Made of Honor. 2 stars.
It's just like My Best Friend's Wedding, except gender-reversal. And maybe more fun to watch. But this rom-com was disappointing.
The storyline was sickeningly cliched and ridicuolously unrealistic. Highly predictable.
The comedy was stale, like in Two Weeks Notice. Worse still it was desperate comedy. Think jabs at fat people and bespectacled dorks. Not funny.
Like I said, the predictable and fairy-tale-like plot disappoints too much to provide any warm fuzzy feeling a rom-com might provide.
I have to add: Starbucks and Scotland Tourism went all out in getting themselves advertised in this movie. Lots of frappucino sipping in this movie, and the Starbucks logo always prominently on display. Half of the movie is also set in Scotland, with prominent focus on scenery, nightlife and people. But it truly is a beutiful country and watching the Scottish countryside feature so prominently was enjoyable.
The movie is time-pass.
A meaningless movement... A movie script ending...
Saturday, May 17, 2008
Naw, I was just scrolling through ANA's SiteMeter when I saw that we have our first visitor from the Dark Continent. From South Africa. I got excited.
Now it's just South America that hasn't experienced ANA. But you guys are still kewl.
There are roads left in both of our shoes
Friday, May 16, 2008
Corn becomes ethanol is fuel. Very clever.
No, not really. Fact: the corn required to distill enough ethanol to fill your tank just once could instead feed someone for a year. Trees versus Human Beings. Save the human being or save the world. At this point, I'd like to refer you to my post "Tree Hugger Are Morons".
It is morally depraved to fuel a car at the expense of feeding a human being. It's a vital factor in global hyperinflation in food prices. I say hyperinflation because that's what you call a 25% rise in the price of wheat. Rice is at its highest price in 20 years.
I'm all for renewable energy, but let's get our priorities straight. There are more efficient ways to produce clean and renewable fuel. Solar, wind, tidal, geothermal are all excellent ways to go. Pick one.
Misguided by the 405 'cause it led me to an alcoholic summer
So I'm checking out the blog's SiteMeter and I see that we get a number of visitors from Seoul, Korea. Not sure why that is. Does ANA mean somehting in Korean maybe? Anyway, I just wanted to say "Sup" to our Korean readers. Also, I love Kimchi (bet you get that ALL THE TIME, eh?).
No, I'm not really culturally ignorant. XD.
Back from camp, hence this post. Right now I'm chilling to MTV with Lemonfruit. Here's a thought to the 9 people (on average) who visit poolside-ana.blogspot.com daily: Add a comment on what you're doing right now.
Anyway, I'm running out of things to say. I don't get newspapers at Boot Camp (no politics), there aren't any girls there (or girls) and I'm hacking tired.
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
well i woke up on monday with just a light headache so i popped 2 panadols went to off to school. i kinda fell asleep in the bus (no.14) and woke up feeling super dizzy and nauseous. I got off the bus and i didnt know where i was. i threw up by the side of the road and flagged the first cab i saw and told him ACJC and shockingly he knew where it was. When i reached school i was so disorientated that i didnt know what i was doing. Thank heavens the student councillor in charge was a good friend of mind and rushed me to see the matron. The matron called my form tutor and they decided to send me to the hospital. Upon arrival i had a temperature of 38.2 and had high blood pressure and a high heart rate- so they rushed me into emergency. At this point i lost consciousness.
woke up 2hrs later and apparently 2 injections later. my nurse was really really really nice and pretty and she said i have nice hands! but that's besides the point. After taking my heart rate again the doctor decided i needed to go on a drip. when they first wanted to drip me on my right-hand my veins receded into my body cause of my fear of needles, eventually after 2 tries on my right hand( it swelled) and they decided to get me on the drip on my left hand.
Since i was now not in an emergency position they moved me to the recovery area. This is where my public hospital experience began.
Generally if i need to go see a doctor or go to the hospital i generally visit private doctors and hospitals. The visit to a private hospital is generally quite quiet. There is minimal interaction between patients and you get to see a doctor in under 30 minutes. There is no talking to the nurses and the doctors are generally dressed in the latest Zara or Luis vitton and these hospitals have a doctors car park that can make a motor show proud.
However while i was waiting in the recovery area there were 5 soldiers, a man involved in a accident and policeman flanking him and Bangladeshi worker and a Chinese worker.
The man who was supposed involved in the accident spoke to everyone, he spoke in Tamil and hokkien to both the foreign workers who were apparently hurt in industrial accidents. The soldiers remained quiet but i did learn that 3 soldiers were from rangers and the other 2 were from artillery.
their ranks are as follows: Rangers:leftanant (2nd officer rank)
During my time in the recovery area 2 military policemen came,cuffed and removed the guys from artillery and i can only guess that the guys from rangers were involved in a training accident.
The man who was involved in the accident apparently was some kind of gangster and he had to pick a fight with one of the nurses and the policeman removed him. I then decided to ask the Bangladeshi worker beside me what his thoughts were and he was like he is afraid he will have to sent back home. At this point in time the nurse came ruffled my hair and told me i will be going to my ward- i was initially expecting a normal ward but because of my dad and stuff i ended up in a class A ward and it returned to like being in a private hospital again.
A guess what i learnt is that doctors at the public hospital didn't drive such fancy cars but yet they seemed more human- they have compassion and patience to be able to deal with the wide range of patients. that is truly respectable! Their interaction with you makes you feel more comfortable and it seems that they really care but then again eventually these doctors will end up in a private hospital when they realise that money comes first. The sad reality eh.
hold,touch, feel, kiss, taste
oh yes i'm well aware i'm dying
you are one thing i wont regret
Monday, May 12, 2008
yep me and sam are 6 feet, and weve already fallen
so let me say; maybe 6 feet aint so far down..nope we could do worse yea?
On a related issue the reason i'm 6 feet is, well not you, my pride.
And know what
i dont think your that special, twas a crush thats it..yea well knowing my fickle self
come next week, i'l be listening to blink 182' always thinkin of you.
So, just hold me now, i feel the cold rushing through my veins
And on another this time unrelated issue, let me just ask you this 'X', honestly how would you like it if I was trying to steal your best mates? Yea it would suck cuz u know there just that blind and stupid and get impressed if you done shave for a week. And we all know no one will beleive that immature, lesson skiving, joming...(yes its a long list) paki, but have some godamn soul. Your a good guy, overrated in mine and alot of our opinions, but you cant have it all.
Sunday, May 11, 2008
Next I ventured into Fort Canning, an old British fort intended to defend Singapore from an invasion, which they concluded would invariably come as a maritime invasion from the south. The fort never helped when the Japanese invaded from the north... But it makes for a pretty awesome picture... That there below be "The Gothic Gate".
I ended my trip with the Singapore History Museum. The building oozes this stately, imperial vibe that's sooo good to soak up.
yes I'm an idiot
and YES I know the outcome was bad
but you know whats really really weird
I AM HAPPY
'I see the stars, they're in your eyes
A playful kiss, can you tell I'm excited?
A fast escape in the nick of time
You lost your wish, can I help you find it?
I'm on my knee, to sworn to start
A fresh new start, to be undecided
If love’s the word, that you say
Say and I will listen'
Friday, May 9, 2008
Thats right. Although I normally listen to dreamy, lyrical, AWESOME indie, I also rock to Ronnie James Dio and company...
It's not just Black Sabbath. Alice Cooper, Led Zeppelin, Delain and Motley Crue score pretty high on my iPod.
It's prolly cos I enjoy something HEAVY and LOUD and freaking out of control to balance the sweet indie.
But mostly cos my high school/secondary school friends are heavy metal nuts who feed me the stuff and I've joined the dark side...
Sleep with the devil and then you must pay...
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
If I could find you now
things would get better
we could leave this town
and run forever
'when will it be my turn? when?'
And on a side not
People i hate at ACS International:
REDS: I just hate you.
Sylvanas: I hate how I cant stop thinking bout you, even as I try and study for that major econs test tommorow.
Sunday, May 4, 2008
Most of all i'm disappointed. Disappointed at my countrymen. what kind of society has my country become. Heartless,cruel, impatient bastards is what i believe my countrymen are. Even at the bank when i'm taking out my wallet before walking over to the teller the guy behind me pushes and exclaims loudly for me to move( never mind the matter that i can break his face).
Forget Singaporeans- my country has a hell lot of expatriates and foreigners and i believe that they are the worst. Forget the fact that the majority of them are from India and china. What i really hate about them is how they always criticise Singapore and how much better their homeland is and the way look so degrading at anyone else.
Firstly, if your homeland is so much better what the fuck are you doing in my country and secondly they should remember that perhaps they form the elite in their country but in this country they arent the elite and they should learn their place and they should really keep their sniveling sucking up to themselves cause it aint going to work on me nor my mum and especially not my dad. The government should really consider having some kind of Compatibility test to determine if these foreigners will be able to fit into society before allowing them to work or live here.( something like what perhaps Australia has)
i may sound like some elitist arrogant toerag- well if u want to believe so its your problem. I just believe i'm privileged to go to a top school and have my parents trust me to have my own condo but what i cant stand are rude impatient dis-compassionate assholes. Singapore is a society, lets act like members of a society and help one another or perhaps even smile once in a while. I've never felt so ashamed to be Singaporean before.
To all my friends who say i've changed-i'm still the same person.
Yet I had an awesome time with Pubis and Lemonfruit at the beach tonight.
I felt small and spiritual and awed by looking at the stars that adorn the sky that drapes the space above us.
I'm an asshole of an arrogant debater. But looking at the endless sea and feeling its waves lap at your feet threateningly is very humbling and daunting.
Friday, May 2, 2008
Thursday was labour day/may day/whatever the hell its called in your country. So I was off from camp for a day. I feel like calling us back on thursday (still a public holiday) has gotta be unconstitutional or smth... It was like an oasis in my week. And it came and went...
Today is Friday. Tmr I go back for a physical fitness test. They're encroaching on my weekend. I can't tell you how much I don't appreciate that. I have a family and friends and LIFE to catch up with on my weekend.
Ah well. Duty calls.
I thought I'd talk about music.
I am a huge Death Cab For Cutie fan. My obsession started (I'll admit) the O.C. on which the band was featured. the O.C. basically opened the door for me into the indie music world, where I currently reside, while making the occasional visit to the Heavy Metal world.
Other indie bands score my approval. See: Stars, Nada Surf, The Decemberists, The Format.
I introduced DCFC and indie into ana-poolside and now Pubis and Lemonfruit like them A LOT too. XD.
I shan't tell you about the partay. Atleast not now.
Thursday, May 1, 2008
at half time we were winning 2-0
full time we lost 3-5
i scored one and
i missed a penalty flick that could have drawn us at 4-4
was fucking miserable( never missed a flick in 15 flicks in all matches played in my life)
then i went to coach my hockey babies- for some reason i play like crap around them- i hope they dont loose faith or trust in my coaching abilities. also thinking abt the potentially good players we will loose to the student council. sigh stupid council.
thinking about the next party- 3 weeks time should be good
here are the pics i have of the last party.(not all though- i was wasted rmbr)
damn a'level spa tmr
imgaine sparkling the world with what alice found
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
Monday, April 21, 2008
feel so lost, you know bad day (thanks a bunch IB)
'I swear that I can go on forever again
Please let me know that my one bad day will end'
But i guess it wont ever.
And just staring at you dosent help either
'Are you afraid of being alone
Cause I am, I'm lost without you'
It's so perfect but as we all know fate always falls short
Goddamn the IB and me for being so incredibly ball-ess
Cause yea, I'm lost without you.
Oh yea Blink 182 is the sex
Sunday, April 20, 2008
so yea XD
Damn i had no idea our blog was sooo smexy nice one pube
This weekend was pretty damn unproductive. And the IB was made by Nazi's.
Seriously to everyone even thinking bout taking the IB on
SAVE YOURSELVES AND RUN IN THE OPPOSITE DIRECTION NOW
Summary of the weekend would prolly be: green tea, ciggies, risk and poolside
how very drole
so sick of the mundane routines of every day life..
'Little death makes life more meaningfull'
I'll tell you what I dislike about it.
1) Bigger issues. The environmnent is NOT the issue of our generation. Not when there are still HUMAN BEINGS dying of hunger... What pisses me off the most is when people expect developing nations to consider the environment. Retards.
2) Pretense. It's celebrity-infused bullshit. The environment is now everyone's conscience appeaser. Feel like your life is meaningless? Get behind a cause! Celebrities and others looking to feel good or companies and governments looking to look good. Hot button.
To more important matters, yesterday I went out with friends for my birthday. It was not a very big group but it was a lot of fun. I seem ot prefer smaller groups. Lunch was good. Hookah followed. Strawberry smoke. Then at night I went out with other group of friends to Georges but didn't really drink. Don't feel like it. Also, kinda pissed they forgot to wish me even though I have chipped in for all their presents this year. AH well, too many kewl people have remembered for me to focus on those who didn't...
More fun though was playing RISK with Pubis and Lemonfruit. Awesome stuff. Won 1, Lost 1.
On the night you left I came over
And we peeled the freckled from our shoulders
Saturday, April 19, 2008
I'm 17 now or 18 this year or whatever. I'm attending a junior college/high school. Main aim is to get through the A levels and do as well as mack did and try and get into the same university as him, its a long shot but i'm trying.
more about me: i'm male,single but confused, i play hockey for my nation. i play as a forward or as an occasional right half ( only one cap thus far though and thats in the combined schools youth team, the second tier team of the main national youth team ) i'm out 6 months with a shin injury. Other sports i play competively are tennis and swimming(butterfly). i also play soccer or i prefer to call it football and rugby(scrum half). I was also a debater, represented the nation in that too. i've stopped now cause debating is very taxing. I do enjoy the occasional debate. I dont smoke like my buddies though. I'm not generally very studious but i do fairly well in school-stepping up now though. I think death cab is probably the best band on earth and thats all about me.
Right now i'm doing massive catch up work to get back on track with school and enjoying being a coach.
and oh yeah i forgot i support chelsea football club. i've been supporting them since april.1999 when they beat manchester united 5-0 at stamford bridge.
I have 2 years obligatory national service to serve so I'll be serving the nation till March 2010. Then university I guess.I just finished junior college/ high school. Bootcamp is tough. Very tough. I just look forward to weekends when I can come home and just chill.
I'd rather not talk more about bootcamp cos today is Saturday and Saturdays are for good thoughts.
More about me... Hmmm lets see. I'm 19 as of recently. Very recently. Do give me a belated "comment"...
More: Male, Single. Keep going: enjoys tennis and swimming (only when sunny). I'm a debater too. I really enjoy debating. I'm a light smoker, and dislike getting lectured for it. I'm fairly studious but hate the "nerd" label cos I'm friggin kewl.
See how I spell cool as kewl? That's kewl.
Right now I'm deciding on a future career and trying to survive bootcamp. I go back sunday night. Maybe another post before then. Or maybe next week.
PS: I dont really enjoy usage of XD as net lingo. my usage of the word is ironic. Duh.
Thursday, April 17, 2008
Sunday, April 13, 2008
God damn the black night
with all its foul temptations
i've become what i've always hated
when i was with you then
and yet through the
pain of whethered glass
i held u closer.
-guess i'm just not over her yet.
BTW turn our logo upside-down and u'll see her.